I try deeply to be an incredible friend, an outstanding student, a wonderful daughter, an informed citizen, a tidy roommate, a happy person, etc. And it hurts incredibly to be told you are failing at one or more of these roles. I care so much about the people in my life and i would do anything for my friends and family. I know i have my moments, but who doesnt? And I know not everything runs as smoothly as it should, but thats life. And its really hard when friends run away at the first sign of conflict; thats when i need them the most. Ive really been trying to make changes in myself, but change doesnt happen over night. I ask of everyone to be patient with me. Im really making strides, you just need to give me a chance without being so quick to judge.
This break i have made an effort to keep in touch with friends whom are many miles away, unfortunately, the same effort is not reciprocated. Communication is the key to any relationship and im not sure how this can be achieved one handedly. It saddens me that miles can come between relationships. I understand a friendship takes effort, but im not willing to put it in the time if i am alone. Its been hard to discover who will stand by you and who wont. Fortunately, ive learned to count on myself. As long as i am true to myself, no one can tell me im wrong. I try so hard in staying involved with everyone else, that i forget about myself. If im true to who i am and say what i feel, then those who mind dont matter and those who matter dont mind!
Ashley
