My Somewhat Attainable New Years Resolutions

Every year I make resolutions that I never keep. 2010 has really been an experience, to say the least. I've been single all year, made some really great friends, had nights I'll never ever forget, visited Europe for the first time, fell in love with Europe, and found out exactly what I want to do with my life. So here is to 2011, some of these resolutions may seem dumb to you, but they're things I really need to improve on for myself. Also, I'll probably be able to stick to them if they're in actual writing.

My Resolutions

1. Become better at phone calls- I am the worst when it comes to listening to messages, calling people back, and staying on the phone for long periods of time.

2. Exercise. I mean it. I will drag my ass to the gym at least 4 times a week.

3. Do what I want to please myself, not others. This is something I struggle with on a daily basis, and thanks to a good friend I've made this year, she has taught me to do things that make me happy and not to worry about everyone else's concerns.

4. More time with school, less time with my friends. And by friends, I mean alcohol.

5. Marry an Irish boy- A girl can dream.

Heart of Life

I'm sitting alone in the room, except with the company of our little lit up Christmas tree. It's nice to be here by myself sometimes. I don't usually have time alone to blast my music in the living room while I get ready in the bathroom and eat as much chocolate as I want. But being alone makes me think about all of the amazing people in my life. I feel like that phrase is tossed around a lot, but from the bottom of my heart, I really mean it. I've had the same core group of friends since freshmen year, and since then I've only made more true friends that I can count on. Most people my age can't say that. And I know I mess up and can be selfish and avoid conflict as much as possible, but I'm thankful to have friends who forgive me and accept me as that.

And to the people I've hurt, all I can say is I'm sorry. I am deeply sorry. There are things I'm figuring out that I want to do in my life and I thought I could handle it all, but I can't. I can only hope that when we see each other we'll smile and say hi and you'll remember that I do care about you.

I'm only two days away from home and I'm sad to leave these people for a month, some for months. But I know a few weeks of not seeing friends to oceans apart from each other will not change anything.

Love Always,

Chelsea

One step at a time

Im the idiot. Im the fool. I was wrong.

Your actions were to be expected, everything you did or said was out of love. I was blind and now i see.

Im trying to make things right again. I know itll only take time, but time is all i have. Ill be by your side through it all. I am sorry if sometimes i expect too much, but i am learning. We are growing together and i know our relationship can only grow stronger. Just know that i am sorry. Lets not let the past hold us down, we have a much brighter and happier future ahead of us.

I hope one day you can forgive me. I love you.

Ashley