Perfectly Lonely?

Here i am on a Saturday night. Alone.

My parents are livin it up in Havasu, one best friend is in Monterey, another is busy figuring out her love life, and the rest?, well theyre off doing their own things. This leaves me watching mindless tv while attempting to keep myself occupied on the internet. Tomorrow will be my 4th 8 hour day in a row at the aquarium. Yay for holiday weekends. And believe it or not, people DO come to the aquarium on the Fourth of July. At least i get off at 6, leaving plenty of time for me to get happy (as Chelsea would put it) with my wonderful friends. I must admit it is difficult working 40 hrs a week, but a girls got to do what a girls got to do. And honestly its better than sitting on my ass all day. Furthermore, the aquarium isnt such a bad place to work- great coworkers, awesome exhibits to look at during breaks and a fun atmosphere. Im generally optimistic, which makes many of my problems seem not so bad. But here i am, recently single, and finding the bright side of this dating game can be tricky.

WHY is it that when one person stops caring, the other starts caring? When will you reach the same page? When one starts the dating dance, they tend to seek another that is in the same book and maybe the same chapter, but why does it take so long to get on the same page? And once you get on the same page, how do you stay there? These are age old questions that will never be answered. And the one i have almost always pondered is, Why do we want what we cant have? Its almost like a radar goes off- Oh, they want me... Too bad they cant have me. Hence the "playing hard to get" begins. Screw that. Dating should not be full of games. Rather it should be quite simple and fun. If you dig someone, let them know. Show it, text it, say it. If not, dont lead them on. Thats the worst. We are simply too old for games. I find it MUCH more attractive when i know a guy is interested and shows it. This does not mean you put it all out there on the first date. I mean we do like to work for it a little bit, but when we are struggling to figure out if youre interested in us or not, we become hesitant about the direction of the relationship. So making it clear would be helpful. And if youre really just not that into us, dont make us guess. We would really rather not waste our time. Arent we all here just to get a little taste of happiness and love anyway?

Contemplatively yours, Ashley Kristine